Tidal waves of love and undeserved kindness flowed into every nook and hollow place of my heart…His undeserved mercy and love flattened me right out under the weight of His sheer goodness. My heart turned and leapt and sung its own song, not knowing how to articulate to Him how much His unmerited favor threatened to consume me…When you touch the eternal and you receive a glimpse of divinity and you know that there is nothing in you good except for His life…words are ineffective and only a deep cry in the heart can pronounce gratitude that cannot be expressed through frail humanity.
Peter experienced this in the boat…Jesus is there and Peter had been fishing all night and managed to catch nothing. Jesus tells Him to let down the nets, and despite knowing what the outcome of the overnight hours had been, he drops them down into the cool deep. When he lifts the nets back up, he can hardly tug. He needs help to even contain the outpouring of the goodness of God. Peter met divinity in the way of seeing the very heart of Jesus that blesses people in their weariness and catches them so off guard that they see their current condition and know that His love and His goodness are undeserved….
Listen to Peter’s response as he is confronted with Jesus’ sheer delightful goodness…
~When Simon Peter realized what had happened, he fell to his knees before Jesus and said, “Oh, Lord, please leave me-I’m too much of a sinner to be around you.” For he was awestruck by the size of their catch as were the others with him. (Luke 5:8-9)
When Jesus Himself does something in your life so marvelous that you can see yourself transparent and know that all He does for us is rightly undeserved…you cannot help but to come undone. Jesus, never acknowledging His transforming goodness, nor Peter’s sinful state, compounds goodness with promise and tells Peter…
“Don’t be afraid from now on you will fish for people…” (Luke 5:10).
I can nearly hear the violent heartbeat of Peter at this gracious offer.
Thus Jesus captures us with this bold lavish sweetness and shows us where He sees us going, not while confining us to where we have been. He changes our perspective, shaking us down with His unfailing love and mercy. And in the most basic sense we become aware that without Him, we are incapable of anything, even pulling in the net.
~But “When God our Savior revealed his kindness and love, he saved us, not because of the righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He washed away our sins, giving us a new birth and new life through the Holy Spirit. (Titus 3:4-5).